Tone It Up: Revisited

This is what would have been my last week of Tone It Up's 8 week bikini program. I'm just gonna lay it all out there and be honest - I lasted two weeks. During those two weeks I actually impressed myself with my self-control. But it seems that was short lived.

I need to face the music and come to terms with the fact that I'm probably never going to be a size zero again. I'm also never ever going to have the time to work out twice a day for the rest of my life, or meal prep for 4 hours every Sunday (unless my dreams of becoming a stay-at-home mom wife are realized). I'm not saying it's impossible, I'm just saying it's not going to work for me.

I've realized that being healthy is truly a lifestyle choice and the key to this lifestyle is balance. I can't afford the time or money it takes to look like Karena and Katrina. I have way too much going on in my life to add "washboard abs" to the list. It's just not going to happen right now. And that hasn't been easy to accept. Mostly because I have a very bad habit of comparing myself to others. The truth is, I don't want to go to a baseball game and say no to a beer and hot dog. I also don't want to come home from work at 9:30 at night and go for a run. I want to stop feeling guilty. So I'm going to incorporate balance into my healthy lifestyle.

*I just did a google search for "inspirational shit"

So here's my new plan. I'm going to eat better (like limiting the amount of raw cookie dough I eat while binging on HGTV's Fixer Upper) and work out at least 3x a week. That's it. That's my plan. And it's going to be enough.

I know the majority of you don't care about my eating and exercise habits - that wasn't really the purpose of this post. I just want you to know that you are good enough. I know that's not always the way you feel. To be honest, I feel inferior most days (unless I'm three drinks deep at happy hour, then I feel like I am better than everyone, everywhere).

Life isn't perfect - it was never meant to be. We all have our own shit going on that maybe no one else knows about. Stop comparing yourself to those around you. Sometimes, a good day just means you got out of bed and made it through the day without crying. That's okay. Count those days as a win. Every time you try - regardless of whether it's in life or in a 45 minute Insanity workout - you are winning.

Now go out there and be the bad ass I know you are - whether you're dominating your Chipotle burrito bowl or dominating a lunchtime run.